Navigating the Twists of Love and Co-commitment Through the Clarity of Iboga Somehow, I landed in a love triangle: the man who I love deeply, and who loves me just as much, is emotionally attached to another woman. When the truth emerged, I was devastated. I couldn’t believe this was…

Navigating the Complexities of Desire and Devotion in a Modern Relationship It’s 5 am and I can’t sleep. These days, my mind feels the need to wake up early and reflect. There is much to figure out, much to clarify. Why is choosing 100% for one partner a spiritual practice…

Embracing the Untamed Spirit Within To all the women that hide within me: “Show yourselves”. The Wild Woman rises with a growl. Her teeth are bared, gazing straight into my eyes. “You want to know me? Here I am. I am the essence of darkness — black, heavy, smoldering, intoxicating. In my realm, grotesque images…

About the beautiful self-made drama choreographed by our inner parts — “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will rule your life and you will call it faith” (Carl Jung) Relationships are the places where the past tends to reproduce itself. We are sleepwalkers caught in a dream that isn’t even ours. We reproduce and relive the past as we saw…

Nurturing the Soul with Love: Building Authentic Relationships through Understanding and Empathy. The more I ponder what it means to choose 100% for each other, the more I realize that it has less to do with specific details like where we would live, how much time we would spend together…

Embracing the Shadows: How Love Illuminates and Heals Our Deepest Wounds “Can we make this choice, of 100% choosing for each other and at the same time, being 100% honest with each other?” What does that even mean, to choose 100% for each other? It sounds so definitive, so black…

Tending the Wounded Heart: A Voyage of Self-Discovery and Courage in Commitment — For the past few days, I have been getting in touch with my inner child on a daily basis. She needs me now. The emotional pain that she inflicted on me during the acute phase of her last outburst was accompanied by thoughts along the lines of: “He doesn’t love…

A heartfelt journey towards self-discovery, companionship, and unconditional love for the forgotten self — I still feel the trigger deeply. The thought of him loving, being intimate, laughing, and holding another woman causes pain in my chest, throat, and jaws. The contraction is so strong that I feel like I’m choking and unable to breathe anymore. I look at the pillow in front of…

On all the ways that I betray myself — Dear self, I have to tell you you many things and I will put them all down on paper, one by one, hoping that you have the courage to read my words and understand why I find you unreliable and that I can not trust or believe you. You have…